My name is Angela and I am an Addict. As of today I have been sober for 2 years from Prescription Opiates.
2 years ago on this penultimate day I had options: Jail, Institution or Death.
For a year leading up to June 24/2018, I was well on my way to Jail at the rate I was going. The low-life behaviour that surrounds drug seeking is indeed awful and it becomes criminal. If I had kept going, I have no doubt I would have ended up in Jail.
Death at the time also seemed like a semi-decent fate. When you wake up every morning thinking two things: “Wow I really hate my life and how the F will I support my drug addiction today?” – the overwhelming burden of it all drove me to madness and I often felt suicidal.
Finally I chose an Institution but this came with its own paradox. Once you tell people your truth – there is no going back. I became the “Pregnant Drug Addict” overnight when for decades I was considered a friend.
Not many people want to support a “friend” (no matter how long the friendship) when they realize you kept something that was very personal and private, just that and they weren’t in the “know.” This one thing can invalidate decades worth of relationships in a minute.
Those aren’t your true friends I’ve learned, but it’s those lessons that hurt the most.
It was a very lonely experience and one I shall never want a sequel to so how does one make that a reality?
Recovery for me has been a real, authentic, painful yet beautiful experience.
The past 2 years has tested my strength and commitment to living a different life but I have never wavered. My daughters are my world and my opportunity to help change the world when it comes to Addiction, Mental Heath and Harm Reduction with Plant Based medicine.
As I am about to enter a crucial phase in my Divorce, which will shape the future drastically – I am meant to have this time under my belt for what I am about to accomplish.
I am so thankful to everyone who has been part of my life in this journey. I love you all and could not have achieved this without empathy, love and support.
We are going to help change the world.